happily ever after

2006-05-03T18:38:00.000+08:00

2006-04-10T19:35:00.000+08:00

r a i n b o w

http://www.ryoni.com/models/alessandra_ambrosio.html

2006-02-26T20:37:00.001+08:00

I'M BACK! hahahah how spastic
but cos dumb diary-x fucken dieed on me, i decided WHAT THE HELL.
so i'm back, yes (: HAHA silly stelli

so loads of thing's been happening and stuff
but top of the list :
INCANDESENCE got first for our category!
and we're on to the finals!! WOOHOO!! : DDD
thanks to everyone who believed in us all the way (:
and everyone who came down to support,
MUCH APPRECIATED :D
especially BRENDAN, DEBBIEE, DAVID, LEA, ANDREA, ILLUMATE, COUNCILLORS, SHAWN, MARC and everyone else that i forgot.
:D you all still DO matter, okay!

and now for the past forever of my life :
friday, 17th feb
had dance then RUSHED to meet BRENDAN for my hawt date. HAHAH no laa. but ya. :D it was happy yay

saturday, 18th feb
happy day, okayy!
went for funorama with BRENDAN and friends.
met many people there it was happy happy happy :D
but it rained while we were there so we got stuck in the shelter
then paul was making alot of noise l: aiyohh embarrassing. HAHA
but it was really funny, laa. entertaining, really

sunday, 19th feb
massed at cathedral [?].
fr anthony!then went for dance from nine until late )):
it was really quite tiring, but fun anyway
i think incandascence grew closer YAY
and we more or less like, finished stuff already
EXCITING, NO? : DD

monday, 20th feb
thanksgiving mass at sn :D
nuff said. it was good ((:
out with sammiee! and then she came over to watch /sound of music/ after
we couldn't find the vcd / ld / tape at first so it was quite depressing
but we found it anyway! YAY i love sammie :DD

all that's left is gone away.
nothing's left to stay..
hanging on to what there is,
hoping that it'll stay the same

tuesday, 21st feb
went to polyclinic to get my referral FINALLY GOT IT yay!
appointment on the seventh of march at alexander hospital
dear God, please help them to help me, thanks (:
watched / PINK PANTHER / it was really quite funny :D hahahah!
i love you, BRENDAN (: yes i do yay

wednesday, 22nd feb
today was fucked. fullstop.
thank you so much, BRENDAN. i don't know what i'd be without you

if you read through everything, WOW! well done to you.
you must be REALLY patient! : D

2006-01-21T10:42:00.000+08:00

as the deafness of silence overtakes me
and i'm left wondering what's left

moving on YET AGAIN.
but this time, i'm abandoning.
( eternityy.diary-x.com ) relink!

2006-01-19T20:10:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEBBIEEE!
lee meiling deborah jean.
i love you plenty much!

this entire entry is dedicated to you :D

2006-01-18T21:30:00.000+08:00

i'm now blogging for my dear stelli who's com is down.
STUPID COM! dont be a prankster and work properly!
its seven months today and i swear i love her like mad! (:
she's the most wonderful lovely amazing sweet cute (and ALOT MORE!) person and i love her! YES I DO! : D
she's my darling! yes she is!
and i love her. entirely

2006-01-18T21:26:00.000+08:00

dance today was alright.
did funky stuff and it was all quite fun
but we got really tired. ): hohum
was SURPRISED before reaching home
: DDDDDDDDD
stelli is a happy girl
i like doodoo very much : D

2006-01-17T19:08:00.000+08:00

i just told my mother that my knee hurts
and what did she say?
"pain pain so what. not my fault"
fuck la. thanks

pe today fucked my knee up.
-POUT

on a brighter note,
went for CARL'S with nicholas, feline,
weixin, sam, priscilla, winson&sammieeee
:D it was fun, really.
and i got to catch up with my dearestest
SAMMIEEE after that :D

2006-01-16T21:41:00.000+08:00

to people who actually bother coming to stelli's blog,
stelli is thinking of shifting this useless thing
cos she wants only one entry on each page
cos she doesn't really like long pages of nonsense.
and thus.
please be prepared for a shift soon.
once she actually gets down to it.
cheers (:

ps. school's been alright.
stelli's been pretty nerdy and has been
dilligently taking lots of notes during lectures :D

stelli also went back to sn today
she met quite a few teachers and ate orange bowl
: DDDDD
as such, she is quite contented (:
and she saw brendan today too.
thus, she was / is quite happy.

2006-01-14T22:31:00.000+08:00

today was a pretty good day
cos BRENDAN came over unexpectedly
and stelli was very plesantly surprised :D
and then i had a good day (: hahahah

2006-01-13T21:30:00.000+08:00

all i have n o w

2006-01-12T20:22:00.000+08:00

special post for DINAHHH
cos i'm so horrible i forgot about her.
I'M SORRY, DEAR!!

2006-01-12T17:54:00.000+08:00

i got into dance! : DD
so did poots, jack&lea :D
thanks to DEBBIEE, brendan, mandi&milli
who wished me luck (:

2006-01-11T21:16:00.000+08:00

be my juliet and i can be your romeo

dance audits today.
OHMYFUCKINGGOONDESS
it was so embarrassing. shit. don't ask.
but it was fun too. in a way? yehh

got our timetables today.
i end at four tomorrow. crap

2006-01-10T11:23:00.000+08:00

orientation's finally over.
a little excited that lessons are starting,
yet i know that i'm gonna miss orientation SO MUCH.
it's been so much fun, these past days.
i even survived DRAGON BOATING and
a whole day of facils and classmates laughing at me
:D hahah. i'm the best, laaa. -grinn

dinner / supper at prata place with 1T05,
dinahh, brendan and other people. it was
really fun, right? :D hahahh

c'mon, 1T05. here's to more exciting days :D
and IG31, i miss you all!!

ohyeh. IG31 photo on my photoblog!
i'm trying to get OH-FIVE photos too :D

2006-01-08T11:57:00.000+08:00

2006-01-07T21:31:00.000+08:00

true love isn't about sheet music or embossed invitations or lace. it isn't about the size of your bridal party of the expensiveness of the food. true love is what you find when you aren't expecting it. true love is taking the risk that it won't be a happily-ever-after. true love is joining hands with the man who loves you for who you are, and saying, "i'm not afraid to believe in you."

darn sweet, right? read it in a book

2006-01-05T21:51:00.000+08:00

quote of the day "i believe in karma"
and thus, trees can turn into squirrels and vice versa.
HAHAH! (okay fine we were playing some stupid
squirrel and tree game. but it was damn funny, okay!)
i think i'm liking cj more each day :D

went for dinner with DEBBIEE, brendan&david
: DDD it was good good good. purely good.
even though brendan and i had to run in the rain
(HAHA) it was definitely worth it. -grinn
yupp i had fun. very (: i miss sammie )):

EDIT : oh and we got our classes today.
if it matters to anyone, i'm in 1T05

2006-01-04T18:46:00.000+08:00

SURPRISE! i'm scared again l:
just gotten used to IG31 and stuff,
and i find out we'll get our classes tomorrow l:
so i'm going to leave my IG and meet my
classmates for two months tomorrow. OHGOD
i'm scared to bits. and most people from my
IG are doing science? so that's a little sad. hurr.
ohwell. i pray mandi and i will be in the same class.

had mass dance learning again. danced with our
same partners. hahah it was much fun-ner today
cos i think like, we're more urmm i dunno. used
to each other. hahaha. yupp it was fun laa.

2006-01-03T20:52:00.000+08:00

first day of school
first day not being a st nicholas student
first day of being a student of catholic junior college
and yehh. it was pretty fun :D
out of five ij girls in my group ( me included )
four of us were from ijtp primary (:
and the last ij girl is really nice. YAY
hahah. had a darn bloody embarrassing moment,
but let's not even go there. i'll just die, please.

out with mandi, milli, lauw, john after school.
then brendan came to meet us after his school.
it was a pretty good day..

babe, cheer up, okay? just talk to your parents.
i'm sure they'll understand..

2006-01-01T21:50:00.000+08:00

i'm scared of things to come
of taking the first step into the new year
into a totally new surroundings with a thousand new faces...

oh stop being a brat, stelli.
like no one else is scared..

happy new year, all (:

edit: new year's party photos up (a few) in photoblog

2005-12-31T11:37:00.000+08:00

im so bored so bored so bored. -SULK
and i cant call / messagae / talk to brendan
cos i know he's sleeping. -pout
okay fine i'm such a spoilt bratty brat.

2005-12-30T20:01:00.000+08:00

it's alright. it's alright.
everything's going to be alright.
we will make it alright.

i love you so much. i'm so sorry

2005-12-29T22:25:00.000+08:00

bought a dress and my schoolbag today :D
and they were both considerably quite cheap!
surprise. (: hahah. was out with sammie darling
most of the day. missed her like mad, really.
and she was ohsopatient waiting for me to try dresses
and commenting ohsohelpfully "i think this makes you
look like you have an ass" hahah. ohgod. i love that
girl (:

i have concuded that i get upset unnecessarily
(however the hell you spell that damn word)
i shall channel my anger into reading.
it takes you into a totally different world.
and when you're done, you forget about everything.
it's great. i need to read more love stories (:

2005-12-28T22:06:00.000+08:00

just dawned on me how soon baby jovie's leaving
then silly stelli will be all lonely again. ): hurr
that's sad. starting to think i'm really
insignificant&unimportant.
only baby makes me feel all useful again. (:
and she's leaving.
just great. oh hurr. this sucks.
i should stop being in such a slum.
hurr. kill yourself, silly smelly stelli.

inside i bleed

2005-12-27T21:10:00.000+08:00

the only thing keeping me going now

2005-12-27T19:55:00.000+08:00

i'm bored and angry now. RAHH
my mom's shouting at me for
god-knows-what fucking reason
and she's making me pissed RAHH
and the stupid white specks of light i see
everytime i get up from sitting down kinda
irritate me further. hurr. im an angry girl
hence black nails and weird hair. hurrah

2005-12-27T10:38:00.000+08:00

i am absolutely bored with nothing to do
and since i am not in the right frame of mind,
i have decided that i shall go for a hair cut.
HAHA what a random decision. ohwell (:
good bye hair.

2005-12-26T18:08:00.000+08:00

went on a mini shopping spree today to make up for the unhappiness of the past few days.
retail therapy. it works, okay!
got 2 topshop boxers, black quilksilver boys shirt, brown phuture london dress (:
thanks babe, for the dress (:
im quite a contented girl now.
and seafood tonight. how cool! haha

2005-12-25T14:19:00.000+08:00

merry christmas :D

2005-12-23T18:25:00.000+08:00

so uncertain of so many things now
THAT i'm sure of. but yet there's something to it
i dont quite know what everything's about
but im just so troubled now. or something
i dont even know if " troubled " 's the word
to describe how im feeling now
things are just weirdly different now
i guess im just not used to adapting
to change.
to how people change
to how things change.
im so weird, you know
i really am.
i dont even understand myself
i dont even know what im feeling /
why im feeling this way
i guess that's what growing up's about
see. that's why i just wanna stay a fucking kid.
free from weird emotions that dont make sense
free from the world's empty stares and hostile words
i know it's immature. but that's just how i am.

2005-12-23T16:07:00.000+08:00

there's a danger in loving somebody too much

being in love is when it hurts so bad when you're not
with the one that you cry your eyes dry and you just
want to tear your heart out.

christmas eve is just tomorrow.
christmas is just two days away.
wow whee

2005-12-22T09:45:00.000+08:00

the past few days have been good (:
and it's three days to christmas!
YAY! its terribly exciting, please
( other than the fact i have to spend
the day with ______ people )
pokemon monopoly is good :D
hahaha and i want to play game of life

give them real

2005-12-20T23:58:00.000+08:00

i'm fucking bored.
i need a life. HAHA
im lifeless without _______

2005-12-20T22:24:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, NATTY WATTY KRABBY PATTY! :DD

my baby jovieeee is back! :D
yay yay yay yay yay! (:
hahaha. yes im happy :DD

realised i still have a ton of christmas shopping
i need to do. AHH im so screwed. there's also
penitential tomorrow. okay good (:

2005-12-19T19:03:00.000+08:00

ceejay it is. i have decided.

had my cj interview this morning.
met bev&poots&mel there.
br paul's quite funny, laa. yupp!

went ice skating for the first time ever!
it's damn tiring, okayy! and i fell ): once.
had my breakfast at 3pm. how cool is that?
and.. yaa i cant remember what else.
my FUTURE kept popping back into my
head. so it's not my fault! hurr. ohh.
pizza hut cheese is so nice :DDD ahhahaha

2005-12-18T10:41:00.000+08:00

went for my first gig in my life : rockin xmas
it was pretty trashy at first what with continuous
emo ( no offence ) and pretty crappy bands.
but the later bands were amazing :D really.
had so much fun it was crazy. haha. : DD
and running along the street after that was
good too (: hahahah. yupp i had fun.

to mandi : i didnt ask you cos i knew you were going to be with lauw :D

2005-12-17T11:12:00.000+08:00

left hanging

the silence echoes inside my head
and all i want to do is to scream out
for you to be right here next to me

2005-12-15T12:20:00.000+08:00

carls-ed yesterday : D with DEBBIE, SAMMIE,
brendan, david&bona. it was a really fun day
out ( even though brendan and i were halfanhour
late ) and we did many unmentionable things that
are never to be repeated :D but it was all good fun.
hahahha. then had dinner at brendan's place cos
my family didnt want me anymore. )): HAHAHH.

my girlfriends charissa&mandi are coming over
later for a movie marathon :DD arent you excited
for us? :DDD hahaha! i know they miss me very much

2005-12-13T20:54:00.000+08:00

went over to brendan's today and yesterday
towned yesterday and bought a few gifts (:
dinner-ed at godbrother's. lazed the day today.
watched duce bigalow and fourty year old virgin
and i realise im quite innocent : DD HAHAHA!
but yupp :D and i swam and drank alot of water
HAHA it was fun, laa. (: almost froze to death
after that, though. oh! went carl's yesterday too :D
and we're going again tomorrow! YAY!!!

2005-12-11T06:37:00.000+08:00

HE'S BACK!
: DDDDDDDDDDDD

2005-12-10T16:00:00.000+08:00

"Rules of the game : Post 5 weird and random facts about yourself, then at the end list the names of 5 people who are next in line to do this. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "You are tagged" in their blog and tell them to read yours"

1. i like eating rock sugar : D
2. i'm trying not to like pink
3. i'm in love with brendan david chai : D
4. i like watching cartoons. alot
5. i've lost count of how many times i've watched CENTERSTAGE, SOUND OF MUSIC, GREESE, SISTERACT.

five people- ______, ______, _____, ______, ______

In no particular order,list down
3 people you talk to online,
4 people you see at school,
2 teachers,
3 people you love going out with
and 3 people in your sms inbox.

1. sammie
2. mandi
3. minjun
4. brendan
5. charissa
6. sharmaine
7. debbieeee
8. mr wong
9. ms fazi
10. david
11. sera
12. eunice
13. milli
14. daddy
15. rae

So what do you think of number 4?
he's the greatestrestest guy in the whole wide world

How would you feel if number 4 slapped you on your face?
very very hurt. -sulk

How nice is number 6?
REALLY sweet (:

On a scale of 1-10, rate how good looking number 5 is.
6.5? haha i have no idea. never thought about it.

Will you ever fall for number 11?
she's my sister. HELLO. okay laa. i love her

Honestly, if number 8 met with an accident, what would you do?
oh dear me. i'd panic. i think

What sport would you play with number 12?
we'll try to run away from each other's tickling : D

What if number 1 got a boyfriend?
i'd be REALLY happy for her : DDD

Do you hate number 9?
nopee how can i? ms fazi's the bestest bimbo teacher :D

How much do you like number 2?
i love her. hello, she's my girlfriend :D

Will 13 and 7 make a good couple?
nopee. someone will be angry. -shakes head

Would 14 one day kill you?
nopee! daddy loves me too much : D

Who do you like more? 3 or 10?
i'd have to say ten or my godbrother will positively kill me. right?

2005-12-10T12:48:00.000+08:00

TOMORROW TOMORROW!
it's less than a day away : DDDDDDDD

im driving myself mad with anticipation.
haha. quite silly, really. ohwhatthehell.
just bring him safely back to me (:

2005-12-09T22:13:00.000+08:00

dear God,
please help me to get through these thirty two hours
and fourty five minutes ( plus ) before mr brendan
david chai chung kit gets back. thank you.

2005-12-09T12:03:00.000+08:00

TWO MORE DAYS

2005-12-08T16:16:00.000+08:00

just watched my sassy girl and i cried buckets
now i just miss brendan even more ):
and i totally blame my sister for this. -NODS

dinahh took me to the sinseh this morning cos i was scared
haha. the idiot sinseh made me endure alot of pain
and dinah kept talking to him cos i didnt understand a word
he was saying (he only spoke chinese)
HAHA. anyway. thanks, dear. (:

my thumb's totally unglam-ly wrapped up now.
its really ugly. -poutt

3 more days :D

2005-12-07T18:35:00.000+08:00

out with nat and lea today :DD
reddie fun! WOOOOH! haha
we just basically ate, walked around aimlessly,
took neos and ate somemore (: haha
it was all great fun. i miss them laaa

FOUR MORE DAYS.
im excited (:

2005-12-06T22:12:00.000+08:00

i'm back! :DD
missed me? hahah
only sad thing was that i sprained my thumb l:
hahaha and i dont know what to do about it now.
RAHH

2005-12-03T13:34:00.000+08:00

leaving in about seven hours for bangkok
miss me, please!! :D

2005-12-02T21:31:00.000+08:00

my christmas list

2005-12-02T20:15:00.000+08:00

im leaving for bangkok tomorrow! (:
hahah yupp. with debbie, sammie,
aunty helen, aunty diana&wena
(: it's gonna be exciting. i hope? haha

went over to debbie's today. we watched
bring it on again and love actually. david
was bored out of his wits. it was quite funny
haha. then i ended up sleeping. HAHA.
for some weird reason i was quite bored.
hahaha. ahh well. i have to start packing soon.
my luggage is EMPTY. hahahhahaha

2005-12-01T16:59:00.000+08:00

decided to upload grad pictures first.
HAHA
link here

2005-12-01T16:34:00.000+08:00

mandi my girlfriend's upset cos i didnt blog about CINDERELLA
so i shall dedicate a whole entry to it :

mandi&charissa my girlfriends pieced me a
ABSOLUTELY GORGEOUS THOUSAND OVER
PIECE CINDERELLA JIGSAW!! : DDDDD
i was oh so touched when they gave it to me i
kept saying " shit " cos it was so gorgeous
and screaming cos i couldnt quite believe it.
hahaha yupp. it was quite a silly reaction on my
part. but then again, i still love them so much
for it. i'll always remember my girlfriends : D

2005-11-30T16:09:00.000+08:00

[my name is]: stellina gabrielle seng qian ling
[height?]: i have no idea
[in the morning i am]: stonning.
[all I need is]: brendan to come back ):
[love is]: the best gift you can give
[if i could see one person right now]: BRENDAN
[i'm afraid of]: bugs, scary movies, being alone
[i dream about]: being happy and contented one day with who i am

-do u ever-
[stay on aim, waiting for someone special to IM you]: no.
[save AOL/aim conversations]: depends
[wish you were a member of the opposite sex]: actually, yes. HAHA
[cry because of someone saying something to you]: yupp

-who was the last person.-
[you talked to on the phone]: MY DADDY (:
[hugged]: sammie
[you instant messaged]: sammie. HAHA
[instant messaged you?]: lea
[you laughed with]: sammie, rachii, val, charissa, mandi, milli

-do you.. are you-
[color your hair]: yes! finally. haha
[smoke cigarettes]: EEEEEE no
[obsessive]: ask :D i think i am. haha
[could you live without the computer?]: it depends. but i think not.
[what's your favorite food?]: anything potato, CHEESE, beef... ...
[whats your favorite fruit?]: grapes?
[drink alchohol?]: yupp
[like watching sunrises or sunset]: both.
[what hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?]: emotional
[trust others way too easily?]: HAHA. sadly, yes.

edit :
i was so happy today when the talking care bear told me
" you are really special!"
i think i am slightly deprived ):

2005-11-30T13:12:00.000+08:00

grad's over (:
it was generally alright,
but before and after grad was just plain
WOAHHHHHH
i swear i've never had so much crazy fun before
nine bottles of breezer in a hotel room of all girls,
two cushy beds, loads of balloons on the ceiling,
and MUUSICC at one in the morning.
it was plain heaven.
we made our own club, i swear : )
it was hell good.
i think rachii, val, sammie and i got a little high
dancing around like mad monkeys. HAHA. but it
was all in good fun.
MWAAA i love you girls :D

ohyes. a sneak of last night up in photoblog so GO SEE!

2005-11-29T10:59:00.000+08:00

i'm bored to chocolate bits and strawberry pieces l:
i think i woke up too early. darnit
and there's no one online either.. ):
fine. i shall message my friend who's halfway around the world

2005-11-29T09:33:00.000+08:00

grad's later :D
it's pretty exciting, i suppose
what with everyone looking OH SO GLAM and all
i know we'll enjoy each other's company :D

mahjong last night with the family was really fun
it's been awhile since we last played together
so although i lost loads to my skillful parents,
it was good anyway (:

you're still not here ):
and your absence is felt now more than ever

2005-11-28T09:36:00.000+08:00

so no one's really awake at this unearthly hour,
but brendan called from LA so im awake now :D
hahah. yes im a crazy psycho freak. so shoot me (:

the party at aunty phyllis' yesterday was great!
sammie, debbie and i went early and played pool
( fine i cant really play. but i tried! ) then later we
helped with the food (: it was fun except for the fact
that everyone was saying that i was obviously not
a kitchen person. haha sorry! that's not quite my fault..

the food was great anyhow. and so was the company :D
really miss all the conf class people so much! not many
people from my class went, but it was great anyway (:
mahjong was HILARIOUS. and the wine was good :D

only sad thing about yesterday : brendan's gone. off you go ):

2005-11-25T18:20:00.000+08:00

with grad just round the corner
( FOURDAYS! ) i finally collected
my grad dress from the tailor's (:
and im quite happy to say it turned
out pretty nicely :D yay. haha. it's
pretty pretty. hahaha. HOHYEH.

and my hair's urmm. different now.
hahahah. it's quite exciting too. haha
yay. :D today's an exciting day. haha
kinda, laa. : )

2005-11-24T21:42:00.000+08:00

back from sunny sentosa : D
it was really sunny this time!
the last time we went, ( fivemonths
ago ) it was raining cats and dogs.
l : haha. we all got kinda burnt?
haha whoops. but i guess i finally
got darker, laa. : DD yay! haha
after like, twentythousand years
:DD oh yay. hahahah. then matthew
treated us ALL to dinner. woww!
hahaha. ohwell. im tired. and my
legs are hurting me like madd ): rahh

2005-11-23T20:14:00.000+08:00

without love, we are birds with broken wings

i feel like a horrible horrible girl
today, adrian and i taught
dominique ( brendan's younger
brother ) to spell " fugly ". he's
bloody primaryfive laa. l :
then again, i think he knows more
swear words than me. so OHWELL.
hahaha. brendan's grad today. it's
really quite funny cos his mom
made me take a photo with him in
all his OHSOGLAM clothes. haha
and i was in fricking schooluniform
laa l : haha. like major unglam, please.
) : oh no. hahahah. AHWELL. i shall
be unglam queen. wait. princess : D
hahahah!

and i just found out i have to be in church
at seventhirtypm tomorrow. shit ):

2005-11-22T18:04:00.000+08:00

okay, before brendan comes,
i'll just put in a quick post : )

dance farewell was quite a letdown.
yeeaaa ended up having our own
little party. haha. we left at about
three for town (: oh. we were really
touched by all the gifts, though : D
yupp. thanks!

xiaolongbaos were GREAT. yeeaaaa.
harry potter-ing at ninethirty tonight.
and school at eightam tomorrow. GREAT
haha. AHWELL. its worth it. im excited! : D

2005-11-21T20:13:00.000+08:00

what a great day : D
so great day = new layout!
?? haha jokes

but anyway. yes. it was a great day
went over to brendan's in the am
watched the rest of honey : DD
i want to dance, please! i really do
-sulkk had katong laksa for lunch :D

then bus-ed to fareast to meet
SAMMIEE my lousy bestfriend who
couldnt even tell whether i was brendan
or stelli. HAHA. jokes. but i still love
her laa : D so we walked around fareast
for a very long time, basically killing our
poor feet. sammie found what she wanted
to get and got it, but i didnt ): so i settled
with new undies from topshop : D haha.
met DEBBIEE, noelle and randy after
that and randy, sammie and i went to
bakerzin to eat cakes and nice things : D
walked around toys'r'us after that waiting
for noelle and debbie. walk walk walk then
noelle and randy left us and we went to ps
to book tickets for HARRY POTTER AND
THE GOBLET OF FIRE oh my bloody
goodness. its so exciting : DD haha. im
excited :DD

haha see. it was a good day :DD i told you

2005-11-20T14:25:00.000+08:00

WOW. second post in a very short time
haha. i need a new layout. and i need a life
i think i really should be sleeping now
but i dont know why im denying myself
of that one little desire of my weary body
haha. maybe im just stubborn and stupid
but AH WELL. it's been a long time since i could
just bloody laze around the house and waste
my life on the computer just basically doing
nothing. it rocks the shit out of everything
but.. i'm still missing the company of probably
the most important thing ( or person, rather )
in my life. it's just been a day but it feels like
a decade. oh seriously, stelli. get a life.
dont let the headache get to you. -jumps around
like that'd help. prolly going out to town with
my parents later. just walking around hopefully
burning off more calories than i can consume.
i know i'm not going to have the luxury of actually
getting anything, so i'll just enjoy the sights.
( oh jokes ) ahh well. i think i say ahh well too much.
and seriously. i need to stop talking to myself.
toodles

2005-11-20T13:00:00.000+08:00

the worst thing that can happen to me
RIGHT AFTER MY Os has happened to me
I'M BLOODY SICK. as in, literally.
i'm sick ): stuffy nose, body aches.. the works
its sucks real bad cos i cant even slack in peace
hurr. AH WELL. i'm still going out later, tomorrow,
tomorrow tomorrow ( dance farewell! ), and yaa.
you get my drift : )

2005-11-19T15:31:00.000+08:00

Os are over!
Os are over!
Os are bloody over!! : DDDDD
whoopdeedoo :D
im seriously jumping for joy. HAHA
just a little lost now and then.
not quite sure what i'm doing with my life....
BUT OH WELL!! YAY! ! ! !! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !

hahaha. slept over at SAMMIE's yesterday with
DEBBIEE. : ) well, we slept at bloody 430 and
woke up at 930 to play with sarah baby! : DDDD
so not exactly slept much, laa. walked 3/4 way home
from my godbrother's place. at like, 12? escorted
but escorts. hahah it was fun. burning fats, baby! : D
hahahaha. alright, then. russell peters is the greatest
ever. : ) i like.. :)

2005-11-17T12:46:00.000+08:00

tomorrow tomorrow!
it's only a day away : D

2005-11-07T18:16:00.000+08:00

im fucking angry at myself. really really
i want to kill myself. or maybe just the next
person who says VENICE or I TOLD YOU
i fucking hate my mom.
maybe something called sensitivity? fuck

2005-10-28T00:03:00.000+08:00

i hate waiting ):

yes. i am aware i'm behaving like a spoilt brat
but i miss you )):

2005-10-24T21:06:00.000+08:00

im blogging with my sister's new lappie
: DD its a frigging apple powerbook
which is just OH SO FUCKING GORGEOUS
i am mighty jealous, please )):
i want a pretty lappie too! )): haha

anyways. friday was a mighty emmotional day for me
and for many others if i should say so
it was the last day of school for the sec fours
FOUR PURITY dearest had our farewell
it was absolutely MAGICAL
i have never in my life experienced anything like this
the twenty eight of us just lazing on the ICKY hockey pitch reminiscing
about the past two years and all
WOW. it was just great laa
and what with disturbing out teachers ( calling MS FAZI, MRS YEO & MRS ANG
up and making them cry ) , singing songs, and finally MRS GOH coming to
visit us : D hahaha. and then she made most of us cry )):
it was really just oh so totally emmotional, especially for me
i dont even know why
purity is just so great laaa
oh so rebellious and all, but the best all the same
: DD PURITY i love you : D

2005-10-23T21:18:00.000+08:00

LOVE MUCH. thanks for all the memories

2005-10-04T21:08:00.000+08:00

positively screwed. someone just fucking kill me, please

2005-10-01T11:28:00.000+08:00

stellina gabrielle seng just VACUUMED the house!!
and finished packing her worksheets :DD like, FINALLY
hahaha. i was urmm. the house felt dirty. sorry. : )

sammie's birthday SUPRISE photos up. :D
sorry i took so long!

2005-09-30T21:15:00.000+08:00

thank you for yesterday, bestfriends. : D you are very much loved!

recess today was MIGHTY HILARIOUS. charissa, mandi, kailin, minjun
it was great fun. all the way from my super spicy orange bowl soup to AHEM
AHEM AHEM! hahhahaha. finding out what an " innocent pig " stelli is. haha.
i feel enlighted. HAHA. yes. i love my friends dearly : D

on a darker note, results have been coming back.
let me just say that my future for the first three months seems awfully bleak

updated photo albums : school and prelims END

2005-09-27T21:27:00.000+08:00

my baby's gone all cool and shaved his head. HAHA
now he's got really cool not-quite-there hair,
and looks like a fugging army boy / ex-convict
HAHAHAHAH. my godbrother too!!! hahahaha.

but its ok, laa. i still love you all : D

went to my godbother's house to play xbox.
HAHAHA. played halo. sammie, debbie and i really
suck at it, please. sammie and i kept looking at grass
l : hahhaha. and debbie kept looking at the sky. HAHA
i killed sammie once, though! : D hahah. ok, stelli
enough of xbox. you have to start studying soon!

2005-09-25T13:10:00.000+08:00

a night to remember :)

feast day yesterday was such a total BLAST. best i've gone to ever, i say
truly was / is. little miss cinderella me left at midnight. was so fuggin
fun, all the dancing and all. HELL YEHH. i miss dancing so much! oh god
i NEED to dance. AHHH! whatever kind of dance, seriously i'll do it. even
rubbish shit that we were doing last night. HAHA god it was fun. girls and
guys : thank you for the fun. you make me feel like dancing!

oh yes. my new friend : bouncy the hippo. he's sammie's. but he's my
friend : D

2005-09-24T09:00:00.000+08:00

for some unknown reason, i woke up at seven plus
this morning and couldn't get back to sleep l : that's
a first, considering i slept past twelve last night.. -FROWN
STELLI! -shakes head haha right, stelli. be weird.

feast day's later! : DD its pretty exciting and i'll be
going to sammie's house first and we'll be getting
ready together : ) how fun! hahah. im quite sure
feast day's gonna be a blast. even if everything else
sucks, at least i know the company's gonna be HELL
GOOD : D oh yes it will be. now, just pray that my
camera batteries won't die out on me : )

Cos everytime we touch,
I get this feeling
And everytime we kiss,
I swear I could fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast,
I want this to last,
Need you by my side

Cos everytime we touch,
I feel this static
And everytime we kiss,
I reach for the sky
Can't you hear my heart beat so,
I can't let you go,
Want you in my life.

2005-09-23T11:06:00.000+08:00

1 more paper to go! : DDD

okay, world. forgive me. i'm a little insane now,
considering i woke up at ninethirty this morning
and havent done anything productive since. ( since
all i did this morning was eat, remove nail polish, paint
my nails. HAHA ) havent been able to do this since
a gazillion years ago. feels damn good i swear : D
aha! and i'll get to spend the whole afternoon with
my baby just doing nothing. hahaha. how great is that
: D

2005-09-19T14:18:00.000+08:00

staring blankly at the many faces looking back at me
they're all the same - eyes, nose, mouth, ears..
identical in every sense. but yet, there's something different
something that separates one from the rest
there's one face. one crying face
tears streaming down the rosy cheek
they just wont stop coming
reach out a hand to touch my own face - tear streaked
frightened, shocked, i run away. hiding from the world...

We can build our dreams
with a knot tied tight
to last forever

2005-09-18T21:49:00.000+08:00

oh pretty darling. i love you! hope you were happy. MWAA

argrahh. my head's hurting ) :
must be the not-studying. HAHAHAH. you lousy thing
come, stellina. say it with me : one practical, 4 papers to go! : DD

2005-09-17T11:23:00.000+08:00

shing wan sun samantha, I LOVE YOU!

2005-09-16T22:36:00.000+08:00

you and me up in the trees
and the forest will give us the answer
it'll be you and i up in the sky
it's a combination for disaster

marty casey - trees

can i say ROCKSTAR INXS obsession? : )

2005-09-16T17:39:00.000+08:00

i think im going mad
well. i've been told im going mad
too much studying, i say
or perhaps not enough
getting so fugging dissapointed in myself each time
dont know why i try so hard when it all just goes to waste
im fucking my life up
well done, stellina.
that's the way to go

2005-09-11T20:51:00.000+08:00

you and i both know that i really shouldnt be here now,
considering the fact that i've been out in town since three
plus (WHAT WAS I THINKING), back only at eight and
a HISTORY and AMATH paper tomorrow. GREAT, STELLI.
WELL DONE! i think i should just dig my grave now,
thank you very much. please be reminded that i want a
pale pink coffin with silver handles. : ) thankyou. colour scheme
of my funeral : pink, black and white. yes i think that should be
about it. yes.

anyway the reason im here. im MOURNING. and i have a new
enemy. KJAFIDSJLK sato fucking banged into mike
for god knows what reason and just TOOK HIM OUT OF THE RACE.
rahhh. and poor mike was in such a good position too! ):
darn the damn japanese driver. go and die, please. now im just
rooting that ALFKJSDLKFJADF alonso will just die and
crash his car just like his team mate. its not that hard, is it?

oh god please help me. im freaking out soon. AHHHHH. i love studying
i love studying i love studying. oh yes i do.

2005-09-09T23:26:00.000+08:00

i've been told my posts are getting depressing,
so i shall try to do a happy post today : )

so today, i slept at threethirtyam and woke up at tenam
( o.O OH BEAUTY SLEEP! ) cos brendan came over : DDDDD
hahaha. see. its happy : DDDDD we watched love actually,
then we went and met sammie at cartel for lunch / studying
it was really fun trying to be "kiasu singaporeans" and "chope"
the comfy cushion seats. HAHA. quite hilarious, actually.
dessert was REALLY GOOD and we were on a sugar high! haha
ohh i miss my girlfriend so much! went for mass, then dinner with
my girlfriends and my godbrother. yes, i miss DEBBIE alot too
( see, debbie. i blogged about you! :) hahahah )
yes we had fun talking about the apocalypse and what to do after Os.
quite contradicting, but fun all the same : D
bestfriends : i love you alot : DD

2005-09-09T03:19:00.000+08:00

secrets at two in the morning are fun : )
i think i post too much

2005-09-09T00:15:00.000+08:00

--sammos ; crushed flowers says:
she run away
--sammos ; crushed flowers says:
we all sink

HAHAHAH. that is so very true. -frownn

2005-09-08T23:36:00.000+08:00

hello. someone please tell me what im doing with my life?
cos i seriously dont know.
one minute im deliriously happy
and the next in the pits of hell
im moodswinging like a crazy bastard
and i hate myself for doing so
i just cant figure out what im doing or what i want to do
and its just fucking killing me
ARGHH

Os Os go away
never ever come again
little stelli wants to play
Os Os go away

2005-09-08T00:47:00.000+08:00

exciting day HAHA

2005-09-08T00:46:00.000+08:00

shine mary shine!

2005-09-07T23:18:00.000+08:00

best friends at chomp chomp!

2005-09-07T23:17:00.000+08:00

DEBBIE and STELLI

2005-09-07T22:27:00.000+08:00

singaporeans are such obnoxious assholes
really. they dont have words like 'excuse me',
'please', 'sorry' and 'thank you' in their
dictionaries. the only words they have in
their fugging self centered minds are 'ME',
'MYSELF' and 'I'

eughh! what's up with us obnoxious people

2005-09-06T22:03:00.000+08:00

trying to hold on with every breath that i take
gasping for air. its getting hard to breathe
things used to be so easy
so why does it have to be so hard now?
why cant things just go back to how they used to be
you and me. so happy together
let's just forget the unhappy-s and move on, yes?

ok. i shall stop it now. goodbye

ohyes. had the best iced tea of my life last night. YUMM

OH OH YES. visit my other blog for an exciting list!

2005-09-04T20:02:00.000+08:00

i really cannot comprehend what joy my mother sees in going to large scale conventions, being cramped claustraphobically in an enclosed area, smell the perspiration of the person next to you. it really disgusts me. i seriously see no sense in all of it. dad detests crowds as much as i do. but we have to submit to her wishes so we dont have much of a choice. i'd much rather be at home, snuggled up all nice and warm with cuddly hershey.. or marooned on some lonely god forsaken tranquil island ( with no name ) with my best friends and my boyfriend... ahh. if only. unfortunately for me, that is not an option. i'm still stuck in a long queue of vehicles, all hoping to get in before the cows come home. ohh thank god for the invention of air conditioning and music. i'd seriously be dead without them.

update : race on now. its really quite exciting. michael's quite far behind cos alkfjasdijasflsdkj barrichello decided to be horrid and hit michael in the back. well he hasnt been too pleased of late. HURR. and akfjlkjafdsf alonso is still second, and kimi eleventh. ): im very sad. DAMN YOU ALONSO!! i hate alonso. yes i do. i really do. ):

i had the best duck rice in the world for dinner today : D i was really very happy, grinning from ear to ear. i swear my heart would have burst out in song if it could. hahaha. i was seriously esctatic. im so easily satisfied. i think im weird. -frownn little things like my favourite foods get me all excited and terribly hyper. daddy seriously thought there was something wrong with me. he kept laughing at me ): how sad. but i was really happy! : D hahahah

oh yes. i dont know why im typing without separating my sentances today. i think i've just gone a little mad. LALALA. it must be the duck rice. -grinn

2005-09-03T20:33:00.000+08:00

you are so gorgeous you make me drool

2005-08-29T21:44:00.000+08:00

comatose, comatose, comatose

shades of colour slowly creeping
back into my life
the reds and blues overshadowing
greys and blacks
fighting against the current
trying to keep my head afloat
i spy a sinking sampan with a penguin in the distance...

i think i'm happier now
marooned on an island
i'd stay here forever
cut off from civillisation
it's all good

2005-08-26T15:09:00.000+08:00

everything just seems to rush past
in a blur of blacks and whites.
where are you, the colour in my life
i cant do with monochromes.
time is running short
i dont think i can make it anymore
feeling so asphyxiated
finding it hard to focus
finding it hard to make sense of things
nothing matters anymore
all that matters is gone
everything just fades to black

2005-08-21T20:59:00.000+08:00

2005-08-21T17:47:00.000+08:00

an empty heart replaced with paranoia

i need to take photos of retarded things
) : but my sister stole the camera. okay
im sad. haha. just finished my english
essay and i still have a formal letter to
write. WHAT AM I DOING HERE. i dont
know. rahh. asdflkjioweasfd. this is bad.
and im growing fat cos im eating too much
and NOT EXERCISING. tsk tsk, stellina
you naughty naughty girl. TSKK TSKK.
i am a very naughty girl OH NO. and i
have oral tomorrow. OH DEAR DEAR
ME. im going to die. yes i am. RAHH

and im fucking pissed off now. why
should i get scolded for not caring when
im covering up for the person i "DONT
CARE" about. fuckit. stop being so
unreasonable. its not like i dont have
anything better to do than get scolded
by you for things she's doing damnit.

spinning : always - blink 182